2009

1. always carry around a small notebook
2. investigate paranormal activity in seattle
3. design tattoo
4. learn wilderness survival skillz
5. learn about the circle of fifths
6. take a yoga class
7. learn about herbs, especially re: dissolving kidney stones and strong immune system
8. abilene paradox: learn songs? write songs? play outside the house more often
9. develop 5-year debt payment plan
10. learn more about fixing bikes
11. go whale watching
12. go to rainforest
13. apply for an apprenticeship
14. get hula hoop from ground to knees
15. spend some time in portland
16. improve foreign language skillz
17. smoke fewer or equal to five cigarettes/week
18. make LED hula hoop
19. be a better family member
20. spend more time with asha
21. sew a bag for my saw
22. save money for a home planetarium projector
23. turn 24. try to embrace such an ugly, even, divisible number.
24. start and maintain a house blog
25. learn to operate sewing machine
26. be more aware. in general.

the house is finally not empty, and finally clean, and there is finally edible food in the fridge, and we finally have toilet paper. i've snapped out of this lonely-lazy- trance and surprisingly (but just barely, i think) survived the last, most difficult month of 2008. it was a doozy. lots of firsts, for better or for worse. last night i said goodbye with dancing, champagne, and kisses for everyone who would let me kiss them. exactly how i wanted to say goodbye.

i'm re-reading the awakening. partly for book club, partly because i think it's a good thing to do every so often.

"but the beginning of things, of a world especially, is necessarily vague, tangled, chaotic, and exceedingly disturbing. how few of us ever emerge from such beginning! how many souls perish in its tumult!"

twentyshood= every f-ing day is the beginning of a world.