i just rediscovered my old open diary and started re-reading entries from high school. that's right, folks; i've been blogging since 1999. and things on the internet really never go away; every word has been preserved in all its comic sans glory.
we've gone from hamster dance to lolcatz. from icq to gchat. from ms paint to instagram. and from an online diary where most of my writing was about how much i love god, how much my life sucked, and how worried i was that i'd never have a boyfriend to...
BEING ENGAGED TO A LADY!!!!
leslie and i are getting married next year!!! in seattle, where it will hopefully be legal and we will hopefully have a camping wedding in the rainforest and hopefully also a giant doughnut cake.
what even happened between point a and point b??? lots. mostly, i found myself, and possibly a god who is truer to me than my 1999 comic sans god.
telling my family was hard. really hard. i told my sisters first, which was mostly okay. but i put off telling my mother for weeks. and i get it. they're trying their hardest. i know what they're struggling with, because i was there before. but frankly, it sucks. same for leslie's family. i'm sure many of my high school and college friends disagree with our decision.
and then, of course, i have my own personal struggle about subscribing to an historically hetero-normative, oppressive institution. are we perpetuating something destructive? should we wait until the benefits of state-sanctioned marriage are available for everyone (single people, unmarried people in relationships)? what does it mean to get married in a state where the state recognizes our marriage, when we live in a state that doesn't? probably a lot of our friends in the queer community wouldn't choose this path.
everyone's gotta go to through their own process. read the books and articles you need to read, think and pray the way you need to. we are doing everything we can to be thoughtful and intentional about how we go about this whole bizness.
come next summer, whether or not our families show up, we plan to celebrate our love with a group of people who genuinely love and support us.
